Not Jess a Pretty Face

“Oh, these men….They don’t know nothing about love”

“One woman ain’t never enough.. what am I to do?” -K Michelle


The moment I start to feel played,

I stand tall on my defense

Shoulders back …building walls

Straight brick no wire fence


I’m a queen by blood

It flows beneath my skin

And a King is only that if

I decide to let him in


I’m cautious of who I love

I’m sensitive about that shit

If you slip he’ll try to sink you

Head up …pay attention sis

Jess felt the need

SOOOOO I haven’t posted in a few days so I felt the need to say something. I’m still on a diet towards my 15lb weight lost. My current plan is working out 3-4 days a week and eating on an intermediate eating schedule with a 1000 calorie max out. So far so good. This is definitely going to be a slow but productive way to get these lbs off! HMU with any questions or ideas on what I can do  to drop this weight! Y’all be bless!

Jess can’t take it!

So far I’ve lost 2 1/2 lbs on the smoothie diet! All good but I’m getting these awful headaches that I can’t shake. It started on day 2 and on day 4 morning I’m still waking up with them. So I’ve decided to walk away from the diet this time around. I Jess can’t take it! However if you were on this journey with me KEEP GOING! I repeat KEEP GOING! It does work! This morning I weighed in at 155.0. My goal is still 15lbs. I want to see 140 on my scale. So I’m going to keep continue working towards that! I’ll be posting meals and snacks 😀

Jess what the Dr. ordered! Smoothies 1-5

                               Day 1


3 handfuls spinach

2 cups water

1 apple, cored

1 cup frozen mangos

1 cup frozen strawberries

1 handful seedless grapes

1 stevia packet

2 tblspn flaxseeds

                         Day 2


3 handfuls spinach

2 cups water

1 banana peeled

2 apples cored

1 frozen cup of strawberries

2 stevia packets

2 tblspn flaxseeds

                         Day 3

1 handful of spring mix greens

2 handsful spinach

2 cups water

1 ½ frozen blueberries

1 banana peeled

1 apple cored

1 Stevia packet

2 tbspn flaxseeds

               Day 4

2 handful of Kale

1 handful of spinach

2 cups of water

2 apples cored

1 ½ cup frozen peaches

1 ½ cup frozen mixed berries

2 Stevia packets

2 tblspn flaxseeds

                 Day 5

3 handfuls spinach

2 cups water

1 cup frozen peaches

1 handful grapes

1 ½ cups of blueberries

3 Stevia packets

2 tblspn flaxseeds

               Day 6

2cups fresh Spinach

1 cup pineapple chunks

2 cups frozen peaches

2 bananas peeled

1 ½ packets stevia

2 cups water

2 tblspn flaxseeds

Is it Jess me?

Is it Jess me?

So lately I’ve been on this trip

Because mentally my shit has slipped

You ever get the feeling that you’re losing it

Thoughts all scattered mind unfocus

Movements mixed, obvious not noticed

Or is it Jess me?

I always try to keep it together

Seem as normal as green on trees

But when that silence creeps up on you

Then you start 2nd guessing if two ones makes two…

Its like the mind is uneased

Or is it Jess me?

I have to center my mental

Get back up on my feet

Because 80% I’m with it but that 20 keeps riding me

You ever get that feeling that your cognitive is weak

Movements mixed, obvious not noticed, Mind keeps pacing

Or is it Jess me?

Jess Listen

Captivity- the condition of being imprisoned or confined

“I am ready for love
Why are you hiding from me
I’d quickly give my freedom
To be held in your captivity” –India Arie

Strolling my IG the other day and came across this post that made me think about the “ships” that I’m in. The post described relationships/friendships as being “ships” that are supposed to be able to move you. Get you from point A to point B. You can’t be in a friendship/relationship with anybody that ain’t taking you no where. Whether it be motivation, collaboration, or financial support… make sure that ship taking you somewhere. And not just any where…make sure that ship taking you where you wanna go!

Life is about choices…

Should I go left… should I go right

“Ships” need to be moving

if your ship chillin’ that aint alright

Love beyond the pain

Stand when the shit gets weak

Listen when voices crack

Dive when its gets deep

Hold me in captivity so your love can imprison me…. -Jess