Jess Keep Me Cumin…

Inspired by the soft words it’s ok…Jess relax

Deep breath, doing as I’m told, seduce me I love that

Passion behind the touches, eyes closed in wholesome glee…

Suck me here …fingers there, slowly part me at the knee

Godly I feel lifted, how do you know your way around me

Pantin’ short breathes, exploring new sex, wet secretions release from me

Affair without penetration isn’t really an affair

And sex without connection is a mental warfare

Jess keep me cumin, keep me throbbing, keep on loving on me

My first time and it’s so beautiful, did I mention she’s a SHE?

Jess when you thought it was bad

Jess when you thought it was hard..

He reminds you that it could’ve been you

And Jess when you thought it was over

Some how you pulled through

Jess when that rain continued with storms

The sky began to revel blue

And Jess when you thought you failed

He showed you that was too little for you

Jess when you couldn’t hear his voice

Your sight was renew

And Jess when you thought it was bad

He showed you he was God

Jess he favors you

Jess, stand up

Stand up, you’re not falling

Open your eyes so you can see

Stand up, it’s not over

choose you, that’s priority

Stand up, this is a season

What’s broken will be fixed

Stand up, you are Queen

with or without you are worth it

Stand up, this will be hard

take one step then two

The third will be more comfortable put the focus for you

Stand up, inhale, exhale then breathe

Stand up, use the wall if you need

Jess, stand up Queen you are the seed

The Darkness Jess before Dawn….Pt.1

If you’ve been reading blog, you must know that writing is a release for me. I pray that you all have something…one thing, that helps you center yourself. “The Darkness Jess Before Dawn” is going to be my short cut biography. I feel that with narrating my story, it frees me, not that I’m bound by anything but free in a sense that I’m holding back nothing.

I’m a Capricorn, the goat, and everything they say about Capricorns closely defines me. I was born in NY but grew up in Charleston, SC. As a child I walked, ran and explored the streets of downtown Charleston. My mother left my father up north after suffering from domestic violence. I remember vividly growing up among all my cousins, aunts and uncles. I remember fun, I remember love, I remember childhood.

At 16 my sister had my first niece, my first child, at the time I was 10. After she had my niece, I no longer had a big sister, I was the big sister. I transitioned from childhood to motherhood. My mother had expectations for me now. My sister slowly left my niece behind as she transitioned into a new lifestyle surrounded with drugs. So, at the age of 10/11 I was more than a pre-teen, I was an aunt with mother-like responsibilities. I too learned how to make bottles, change diapers and rock a baby.

Fast forward three years later, we move to  North Charleston, Dorchester Waylan to be exact, by this time my sister has had my second niece and we are living 8 to a three bedroom house. I was mentally overwhelmed, I was vulnerable for attention, I was independent so no one was checking. And just like that I became a victim……